My 'Spiritual' background



At a 'Youth for Christ' meeting in Vancouver British Columbia, in 1953 I accepted 'Christ' as my personal savior as per the understanding of the spiritual rebirth as taught by the Church. I did, with all sincerity, live as the Church expected of its adherents and members. I was without a doubt 'one of them'.

Still ... I felt there must be more to the Christian way of life, but had no idea if there was for sure. I was not completely satisfied with the teachings of the Church. I was genuine in my beliefs but, at testimonial meetings I was unable to declare, as others seemingly could, what the Lord meant to me, how He had blessed me, how I loved Him etc. without feeling like a hypocrite. I knew many of those who gave such testimonies and believed that many of them were phony, as over the years, we have all been witness to the phoniness of many of the so-called 'pillars of Christianity'. I simply carried on as the leaders of the faith directed, only to discover that there was indeed more... MUCH MORE.

I made the amazing discovery that "I and the 'Father' are One". To say that I was astounded is a mild description of how excited I was. I knew that this was indeed a Truth that the Church had missed. I felt that I had made the discovery of all discoveries and hoped to share it with my fellow believers, only to find that instead of rejoicing with me they considered me a heretic and a blasphemer, and wanted nothing to do with what I had to say. So I quit the Church. Everything I said then and everything I say now can only make you a better 'Christian', can only draw you into a closer walk with God. It was obvious that the Spiritual rebirth as taught by the Church could not create in anyone a 'Consciousness of Oneness'. Only as I discovered that man and God were One, One and the same, did I realize that we could walk As God! Not just walk 'with' God ... but As God ... as the Church said we should. If the disciples, who walked with Jesus, ate with him, etc., could not understand him as he spoke of his relationship to God, of man's relationship to God, how can we expect Humanity in general to comprehend it. Seeds do not germinate immediately, it takes some time. In like manner it takes time for the significance of the truth, that man and God are one, to 'sink in'. Only as we realize that man and God are one, can we 'walk' as that One (as God) , made possible through the 'Spiritual Rebirth'. Here in lies the Real Spiritual Rebirth.

It is written, 'let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus'. You cannot attain 'Christ consciousness' without first realizing that 'you and the Father (God) are One', for the Christ Mind is simply the Divine Mind, the Universal Mind personified. The 'Christ Mind', is the 'fruit' of that awareness, the fruit of the Spiritual Rebirth.

As no one would listen to what I had to say I decided to 'put it on paper'. It was not an easy subject to explain, especially with very little help from anyone I knew. The only place I could turn for understanding was 'within'. I laid claim to a particularly meaningful scripture, James 1:5. 'If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally and up braideth not, and it shall be given to him. But, let him ask in faith, nothing wavering'. I never ever asked for any 'thing', only for enlightenment and understanding. I can say without equivocation that time after time after time I received the answers to my questions. They came intuitively and without fail, and formed the 'substance' of this book. Nothing I have written will separate you from God. Everything I have written can only draw you closer to 'Him'. As I said at the beginning of this chapter pertaining to 'born again' Christians, that I was 'one of them'. I still am... only now I can proclaim it with conviction and authority!




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